Derailed Mid 08 but I’m Ready to Rock again
I’ve been gone a long while, first it was an injury and then it was a serious heart problem and then pile lots of emotional junk on top of that, and I just gave up pretty much the last half of the year, but it’s a new year and there is a new resolve to do better and get where I need to be, to take care of me inspite of everything else.
I started the year off with getting rid of some of the emotional junk by getting rid of the boyfriend, and then by deciding that I will not let someone else run and ruin my life with their negative energy, especially on a site that is suppose to be supportive. I know that everyone will not love and care about me the way that I love and care about them, but when they don’t, it’s their problem and says nothing about who I am. We all do the best we can with what we have and I know it wasn’t intended to be negative, but I just take it too much to heart when other people don’t seem to care about me, and end up feeling worthless and let it get me depressed and that gives me a license to stuff myself and not take good care of myself. That has to stop. I deserve better than that from myself. If the people I want to love and care about me don’t, or not in the way that I need, I just have to push on knowing that no one can ever love me enough to make me who I need to be except God and myself. When you’ve got the best on your side, the rest really doesn’t matter. So I’m going to weigh tomorrow morning, fix my weight tracker and get on with what I need and want to do. I love my family and I want to be around a long time to be there for them and be a good example of what you can overcome when your heart and mind are set upon the right things.
So here’s the list of things I will start improving:
1. Take my supplements and medications everyday as they are meant to be taken.
2. Eat breakfast everyday.
3. Keep my calorie counter up each day and log my exercise.
4. Make use of that gym I pay for every month.
5. Drink 8 glasses of water per day.
6. Stay in touch with my best friend, Jesus, all day and ask for His help in dealing with my food obsession and poor emotional health.
Glad to have you back!
Oh Sweetie welcome back!!!!!!
So glad your getting through your health problems and have a plan to get healthy emotionally! I’ve left this site before due to hurt feelings. We just can’t take everything so seriously here. The uplifting YES take it all but anything else we can take what we want and move on. I realized that I was expecting too much out of here. Not anymore though!! Here for the right reasons and ready to get healthy for the right reasons. So glad your back Holly! I’m SO here if you need a friend.
Funny, I pray every day but have never prayed about my weight loss or habits. I don’t know why exactly. I’m glad I read this today. Welcome back, and how great you made some changes that probably weren’t easy to do.
Happy to have you back!
Sounds like you have a great plan to get to your goal! Love your list too! Good Luck! 
Welcome back. I just came back today myself. Rock on with your resolutions and congratulations on making positive changes for yourself in 2008, even if they were nonscale victories. The scale victories are next!! Ellen
Welcome back! Awesome plan!
Awww thanks guys! You are always so encouraging! This is just the best site with the best people!
Oh and I changed my name to HollyRockstar since I saw there is another Holly here now and I’m back rocking with the Rockstars.
Wait a minute………”scratching my eyes” Is it really you HOLLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welcome home. Were all in this together my friend, and you WILL SUCCEED!!!
I’m just so happy you are back
I’m so glad you’re back!!! Please, whatever you do, do NOT beat yourself up! Life happens to all of us, and we all get off course at times. The important thing is that you’re back and working on taking care of you again! Welcome home honey!!! xoxo Angie
Welcome back! Let’s make this your year!
You guys are sooo sweet, I’ve missed you and I’m glad to be back! I just finished my second bottle of water and about to get the third! You guys are a wonderful inspiration!
Welcome back! Don’t let anyone derail you from your personal goals.
You just brought a BIG ol smile to my face Miss Rockstar! It is SO good to see you back here and ready to get busy
I love your #6…great one!
Welcome back!! HOLLY’S BACK!!
Yup I feel totally luved! This is worth cutting calories to be back with you sweethearts!
It sounds like 2009 is going to be the year of YOU.
You deserve to put yourself first for a change.
Its not important that you lost your way for a bit whats important is that you are back.
YAY!!!!!!