One Small Step Starts the Journey
Yesterday I took that small step and came back to BS. Then I took another, I made a list of things I need to do. Then another, I actually consumed my water and it wasn’t that hard. The rest are steps that I will take along the path to renewal and rebalancing.
I read Kama’s blog and I knew exactly what she was saying. Grief and loneliness have been a large part of my life and a place where bondage could really take a stronghold, especially in the form of food addiction. It’s my number one medication and it’s not what I want to turn to and worship as the comforter of my vexed soul. I want to live in freedom.
I keep reminding myself that joy and happiness are not the same thing, and I always have joy even when happiness is missing in action. My joy is the Lord, and my trust in Him. It’s the peace in the emotional storm that I need to seek when I feel those attacks in my head, stomach, heart, mouth, mind….wherever they call from, there is one single solution that resides in my spirit and it’s always available but, I’m the only one that can access it. That’s my part of the solution, just to seek it when needed. That is a step I’ll work on today, for I have a journey, but I’m not alone and there is health and wholeness at the end of the journey.
I think I started and stopped so many times because I thought I had to do it all, all at one time! It was overwhelming and I’d give up. Then I decided to just change one thing at a time, and it all came together.
Food is very comforting, and it’s hard to find something else to fill its place when I want to eat out of boredom or sadness or anger. Recognizing when we’re really hungry and when we just want to eat is an important step!
Good luck to you!
Glad you are back - you are my water guru
Amen girl! We can beat this addiction!
You are not alone sweet Holly!